"Remember whose you are..."

Hello All-
Has there ever been a time in your life that you gave up on something? Threw something to the side because, you just did not feel like finishing it? Or how about something that is a little more serious, cancelling an appointment that would leave the doctors in a bind or quit a team that really needed you?

Well, I have always felt like I am a pretty dependable person. As may of you know, growing up I had many responsibilities. I was a manager of a pool by the time I was 18 years old and was working two jobs. (not for a particular reason--) One of the main reasons for this though is that I feel like when you commit to something then you should really stick with it--and try your best.

Let me be the first to tell you, I have wanted to get those suitcases out, pack them & hit the airport as quickly as possible a lot this week. Not because of something happening to me or because I was mad or upset. Mainly because I miss home. I knew coming into this trip that I was going to be in a very isolated situation. I knew that beforehand, but sometimes you can't grasp that coming from a go go go lifestyle.

Right now, i lack a lot of things that normally do not intimidate me. Probably because I am in a foreign country and there things around me that I do not understand. Situations that cause me to feel stressed.

I feel like above all--I'm here for a reason. The kids are really adjusting to me. (Side Note- Got a little off the subject here: I've been trying to learn to speak some Hungarian--and a little girl, Fanni asked me why and I replied, "Don't you want to be able to talk to me before I leave..?" and she responded, "i don't care." Oh, how truthful children can be!) During the day I am fine. I enjoy my time at the schools and even stay late for extra study groups and gymnastics, etc.

Sometimes in our lives there are things that become hard to do. You feel like you are sacrificing your happiness to achieve the goals that you have set upon yourself. Honestly, look back and think about everything that you have ever done that you have not done fully. Were you satisfied? And the bigger question is: Was God satisfied with your work? If I take each day as a count down to my final day here in Hungary, did I really accomplish the things that I came here to do? Or, did I just wait for time to pass me by and go home the same person?

So today, it's not only my choice--it's your choice too. Even though I am struggling in Hungary about different types of things happening in my life... there are things in your life in NC that are a struggle as well. Do you want to live your life and look back and regret the moments that you sat and pondered about your life for the future.. or do you want to live like everyday is truly your last. God gives us each day. Each day is for a reason... did you use your strength and abilities today to make yourself and others happy? Did you tell anyone about Jesus today?

My dad is a pretty amazing guy. Something he has said to me over and over is... "Remember whose you are?" You are God's people. You are here for a reason.

So please pray for me to stop being such a bum.. to get out of the house--learn more about Hungary.

I will be going to a youth conference this Weekend with some friends of mine that were translators in Munkacs. Next weekend is my friend Mariann's birthday weekend. Then the following weekend I will be going to Munkacs! *which I am very excited about.

Love you all-
jessie